No Escape from this...?
There are a couple of things that are bothering me...one, that i'm stuck at home for the holidaes literally, two, i don't really have friends...i.e. wish i had friends to be with expecially since the holidaes been so boring, three, generally i don't think i'm that happy with my holidae and am not really enjoying my holidae at the moment...i've been like what even studying yesterday...i'm really having problems balancing work and play, simply because i don't know how to enjoy myself...it sounds crazy but i don't know how to "play". This is not to say that i don't know stuff that i like...but within the space of this week, i haven't been able to come up with fun stuff to do...and so it has become a one-sided affair and i'm not balancing work and play.
I mean, i'm pretty happy abt things as in everything's fine i guess...just unable to find things to do to make my holidae more enjoyable and fulfilling. And, it seems like i'm not on good terms with some people...and like i feel the holidaes are a good time to spend time with friends and family which i haven't had at the moment. Like, i'm stuck at home...where i can only watch tv and play computer and do some study. Yesterdae, when i read the Time magazine, i saw this article that talked abt whether living in another country would like make one happier...kinda felt this was quite true...coz like there's so little to do in Singapore...but actually what i feel is that the people also make alot of the difference, then again i'm not sure if i'd made better friends if i was in another country.
The thing is that while i seem to always come back to these same issues, its not that i keep wallowing in all this unhappy things, and i know its all in the state of mind, and i can just think positively, and forget all that...but i'm looking for a resolution to these things, which i don't have...and i want to understand these things and know what i need to do. So, i'm still searching...and finding out new stuff each day...documenting all my thoughts into my blog, then i'm sure, once i've passed this phase then i'd be able to find resolution to all these things. For now, i'm just gonna try just play com and watch tv and also continue to do a bit of study each day to balance out work and play...then maybe come up with stuff to do when i think of them, and hopefully...i'd be able to go out one of these days..in this holidae.
So rite now i'm just sticking to that, and continuing to pray that i make the most of the holidae...and do just that...yea, another random post...hoping to escape the boredom and loneliness...
I mean, i'm pretty happy abt things as in everything's fine i guess...just unable to find things to do to make my holidae more enjoyable and fulfilling. And, it seems like i'm not on good terms with some people...and like i feel the holidaes are a good time to spend time with friends and family which i haven't had at the moment. Like, i'm stuck at home...where i can only watch tv and play computer and do some study. Yesterdae, when i read the Time magazine, i saw this article that talked abt whether living in another country would like make one happier...kinda felt this was quite true...coz like there's so little to do in Singapore...but actually what i feel is that the people also make alot of the difference, then again i'm not sure if i'd made better friends if i was in another country.
The thing is that while i seem to always come back to these same issues, its not that i keep wallowing in all this unhappy things, and i know its all in the state of mind, and i can just think positively, and forget all that...but i'm looking for a resolution to these things, which i don't have...and i want to understand these things and know what i need to do. So, i'm still searching...and finding out new stuff each day...documenting all my thoughts into my blog, then i'm sure, once i've passed this phase then i'd be able to find resolution to all these things. For now, i'm just gonna try just play com and watch tv and also continue to do a bit of study each day to balance out work and play...then maybe come up with stuff to do when i think of them, and hopefully...i'd be able to go out one of these days..in this holidae.
So rite now i'm just sticking to that, and continuing to pray that i make the most of the holidae...and do just that...yea, another random post...hoping to escape the boredom and loneliness...
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