More Than Life...and my life...

The start of the holidaes haven’t been great…everyones been telling me to study but I wanna have fun and for the past few days I been more like wasting my time on facebook, so not only am I not studying, I’m not even enjoying my holidae. But, anw, I suddenly feel so out of sorts and spiritually right now it doesn’t feel good either. I really dun know man but just previously I felt like I had understood much about life and been moving so smoothly, I was at a point where I felt everything was so right and I was living as least I felt the way it all should be and there were no issues in my life and I seem to by God’s strength have the ability to ride any storm and God seemed to provide me with something perhaps a verse or a message or a writing or a song that would let me see what I needed to do and that would lead me down the right track or remind me of how I should be contented. But, somehow, after so many things happened especially the eye opener that facebook was, I realized that people seem again to live lives way fuller and more exciting than mine and one of the things I sort of was reminded was that the whole friendship and going out with friends and having many things going on in life that so eludes me still. But, I really need to be reminded not of this but, I need to make sure I realize the truth that, life is about living for God’s glory not about who has lived the best, most full life. It means doing what the Lord wants us to do not what we want. That is truly living life, and whatever God has in stored is truly what we want and desire, coz God knows us better than ourselves and His plan for us is greater than any think we perceive is a life lived to the fullest, for in His plan we find great joy and fulfillment. And, more importantly, that is the only way to live. But, anw, I’m trusting in the Lord to help me to break out of this unhappiness and bad start to the holidaes which I’ve struggled to either rest , have fun or even study. For I know that as I try to truly live for His glory, I will find that joy and fulfillment again. Right now though, here are some of the songs that I’ve listened to this holidaes so far that have really spoken and meant something to the situation that I’m facing in my life at the moment that has been quite a struggle.

The first song is:

More Than Life

Stand by everything You said
Stand by the promises we made
Let go of everything I've done
I'll run into Your open arms
And all I know
Chorus:
I love You more than life
I love You more than life
Fall back on everything You've done
Fall back on everlasting arms
When all the world is swept away
You are all the things I need
You're the air I breathe
How can it be
You were the one on the cross
Lifted for all our shame?
How can it beThe scars in Your hands are for me?
You are the king of all

This song well to me is saying to me that we should trust in the Lord to direct our paths and not try to rely on our humanly efforts to live a successful life and a full life as the world puts it. But, truly, we are to surrender our lives to God and give Him everything that we are and just let God take over and rest and abide and remain in Him. To really daily let God use us in the way He wants us and let Him influence and be in control of our lives; to let God’s will rule over our lives. It is also saying that everything else on this earth will fade and the only person we can look to is God, and comforts and protects us with His arms that are everlasting or forever. All we ever need is God alone and nothing else is necessary or matters. God sent His son Jesus to die on the cross for our sins and rose again as our king, our Lord and saviour. Therefore, we are compelled to love God for what He has done for us and so all we want is God, all we love is God, thus, all we live for is God. He matters to us more than life as the world thinks it, which is about living for things like pleasure, success, fame or fortune, or even experiencing life fully and enjoying the things of this world. So, we love Him more than life, and we let God truly be our Lord and saviour and he is the centre of our lives and matters unlike all the things of this world. We are to love God more than life, and we should not be concerned with how our lives fall short of the world’s standards but where we stand in God’s eyes, and how we have truly lived for His glory alone. And, again, this does not mean we can’t enjoy life, but we must be willing to give up everything each day for God as these things don’t matter even close to as much as our relationship with God which is more than what we can even value, the price God paid is greater than what we can even imagine. So, I shall not be dissatisfied but be content and just truly work at it each day to live as best we can for God’s glory.

The next song:

Devotion

I've been running trying to be one who sees
I've been working this Salvation out on my knees
There is nothing better than knowing that we are redeemed
I'm believing in trusting in creative hands
I am praying for our world to bow to Your plan
And this one thought is unmistakable
I take up my cross and follow You Lord
Chorus:
When You stand the tall tress and mountains bow
When You speak the fiercest of oceans is still
And I see the sinners seek devotion
The lost become chosen
And I fall to my knees
I'm forgiven by a Savior who did not deserve death
He was blameless and I was lost in shamefulness
I'm delivered but it doesn't seem right
Unless I keep my eyes focused on the Savior who gave His life
In the middle of a world that denies it believes
It is breaking apart at the very seams
There is one thing to be alive for
And it's to take up this cross and follow You Lord
Bridge:
I will take up my cross and follow Lord where You lead me
I will take up my cross and follow wherever You go

This song is truly with a very similar message about as we all know, taking up our cross and following God. We have to truly live out our faith in God in our lives and live for God, and to run the race of life by faith to reach the ultimate goal of God’s glory, knowing that we will truly be saved and that the race we run no matter how tough is thus more important than anything else we could live for. This is to the extent that we surrender our lives completely to God and trusting where the Lord takes us, for God is so great that all nature and created things bow down before our true, great and living God. And, because again of what God did for us by dying on the cross for our sins, we cannot do anything else but put God as the centre of our lives and have our eyes fixed upon God alone and living for His glory out of the love that He showed us that makes us love Him. And, even though we live in a world where there are people who live such full lives according to the world and seem to enjoy themselves better and go against the truth, and try to tell us not to believe in God, but we are to stand firm and trust and believe and have faith in God for we know what He truly did for us, i.e. He died on the cross for us. So there is only one thing to do and that is to live for God and surrender all that we have and follow Jesus. So let us not get distracted by the world ways which seem to be more “exciting”, but let us persevere in our walk with God and truly live each day forevermore for God’s glory.

Finally, this song is by Chris Daughtry:

What About Now

Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading,
From all the things that we are
But are not saying.
Can we see beyond the scars
And make it to the dawn?
Change the colors of the sky.
And open up to
The ways you made me feel alive,
The ways I loved you.
For all the things that never died,
To make it through the night,
Love will find you.
What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?
The sun is breaking in your eyes
To start a new day.
This broken heart can still survive
With a touch of your grace.
Shadows fade into the light.
I am by your side,
Where love will find you.
What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love, never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,What about now?
Now that we're here,
Now that we've come this far,
Just hold on.
There is nothing to fear,
For I am right beside you.
For all my life,I am yours.
What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late...

This song here as u know is the odd one out as it is not a Christian song. But, I mean the first two songs really is what I’ve learnt this week and truly just says so amazing what I truly need to do. However, this one is more like how I’m feeling about a certain situation going on in my life which is very similar to what this song says. The thing is that I haven’t spoken to her since like March. And, the exact last thing I said went unreplied and for the other few last ones, it appeared that the friendship had ended. It all began when because I liked her, and I said many things out of that which ended up instead souring the already little friendship we had. But, after that, I had apologized and we had sort of gotten over that whole thing. Then, things seemed to get better as my messages didn’t go unreplied. But, as I tried to take things further and said more stuff, I wasn’t given any definitive answers. And, instead, things got worst. And, then the last thing I said was in March after which I never made contact again. So by that, I thought nothing was left in it. But, after so long, just sometime ago, we finally spoke again, and things seemed to be fine again. The thing is I really don’t know if there was ever a chance for us. And, right now, it seems strange that things seem fine. But, I really don’t know truly how she feels. And, if I’d knew the truth, I wouldn’t be bothered to get involved anymore. I probably think it wouldn’t work anw, but something keeps saying to me what if. And, to be honest, I’ve tried hard to forget her but after having some convo I realised that even though its been almost a year and much more, I still wish things could work out. So much has been said yet, nothing to reveal the truth, and I really wish that I find out before its all too late.

Yea, so tts all I got to say, hope things will work out anw this holiday, I mean the not so good start to the holidaes, would become better…for now, I’m just trusting the Lord and hopefully being joyful no matter what the circumstances…

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