Figuring Out This Life...
So yea, last week was the first week of school for me after a years’ break...my first week in poly. I would say it was a week that had almost everything, but on a whole it was great. I mean, I quite like the environment, things went pretty smoothly and I’m just really enjoying studying in a course that I really have a passion for. And, I would say I made marked improvement from my JC days in terms of talking to other people and socialising.
But, I do feel like I still got work to do to be able to socialise in a way that comes naturally to me and like I must make an effort to be part of a group among the different groups that have already formed in my class. So that I have a group of friends I can mix with and friends for company in getting around school coz like I have to take a much longer route to get around school than the rest would. Like, right now it’s difficult coz the groups take their own routes to where are headed and it’s usually not accessible for me so by the time I get to where some of the groups are, I can’t find company. However, I’m positive that I’m making improvements and I’m working on getting to know my classmates better.
Anyway, before I give the wrong impression, I must stress that I’ve really enjoyed school so far, I mean for the first time in my life I can’t wait for each day to start coz I love the course so much and am so passionate about it I want to attend the classes. Even, work we need to do seems more like fun to me than work. And, I look forward for the next day at night that I can’t sleep. I also feel excited to face each new day and continue to mix with the interesting bunch of classmates I have. Mostly, I also feel the school has been helpful in facilitating me in the course which is another thing I’m happy about. That’s why like I said now every day feels like a dream to me coz it so awesome, that it’s surreal.
Truly, I can say I’m living the dream and it is all I could ever ask for. So, school has been pretty good, lessons fine and lunch break’s ok with many places to eat. The only thing would be that school hours are kind of long for me with two days of 9am-5pm school days and two days where I end at 4pm. But, I can deal with it especially when I get my new wheelchair soon. I always have been complaining that my life’s been so boring and not as busy as I like, in trying to live life to the fullest, but now I’ve truly got what I want and I’m so close to my goal of living life to the fullest.
I mean, now I’m so busy, I had to fit in my chess lessons on Thursday afternoon where I end school early only on that day and after a 9-5 day at school on Friday, I had singing lessons at night. While on Saturday’s I have chess training and Sunday it’s Church. Really in terms of activities I think I’m about there in terms of living life to the fullest although I still will continue to improve especially in terms of Church. The only thing left would be to reach where I need to be socially and to be fully content with all my circumstances.
Well, I have had to make some adjustments to cater to this new lifestyle now, like to find time to still be able to slow down, relax, read my Bible, spend time with God and reflect. Also, I need to find time to do my chess and practise my singing. So yea, this week was also sort of like getting accustomed to a new way of life, like to figure out my life. I did feel at some parts of this week I wasn’t really myself, coz I was so busy I couldn’t stop to keep my mind on the focus of all I am doing and that is to remember that what I’m doing is all for the glory of God. So, I’m really going to make sure that I find the balance in my life now and remind myself always what I’m truly living for. So I just pray that I will be able to truly live my life to the fullest and continue to build up myself spiritually and strengthen my faith and my relationship with Christ even as I get much busier from now on...
To end, I guess I’m really happy about this new experience and in a way a new lifestyle in that I’m doing what I’m passionate about every day. But, with these new circumstances that have been so exciting and amazing, I have had to make a lot of adjustments. I put it as figuring out this life coz now that I’ve many of the things I want in my life, I have to make sense of all this in terms of living my life for God’s glory. Yet, I must say this is a good problem to have, coz now I have been presented with all these new opportunities, it’s just a matter of taking them and focussing them into my ultimate goal to bring glory to God. So yea, I just feel so blessed in my life now and it’s been amazing so far in my poly journey, I just look forward to enjoying my life even more and continue to make progress socially even as I’m glad that others have made an effort to reach out to me and with my personal effort to improve, I’m sure I would miss out on it this time. And, as for my course, it’s my passion and I pray that God will give me the strength to excel in it and bring glory to His Name...and finally I see what life is really about...
But, I do feel like I still got work to do to be able to socialise in a way that comes naturally to me and like I must make an effort to be part of a group among the different groups that have already formed in my class. So that I have a group of friends I can mix with and friends for company in getting around school coz like I have to take a much longer route to get around school than the rest would. Like, right now it’s difficult coz the groups take their own routes to where are headed and it’s usually not accessible for me so by the time I get to where some of the groups are, I can’t find company. However, I’m positive that I’m making improvements and I’m working on getting to know my classmates better.
Anyway, before I give the wrong impression, I must stress that I’ve really enjoyed school so far, I mean for the first time in my life I can’t wait for each day to start coz I love the course so much and am so passionate about it I want to attend the classes. Even, work we need to do seems more like fun to me than work. And, I look forward for the next day at night that I can’t sleep. I also feel excited to face each new day and continue to mix with the interesting bunch of classmates I have. Mostly, I also feel the school has been helpful in facilitating me in the course which is another thing I’m happy about. That’s why like I said now every day feels like a dream to me coz it so awesome, that it’s surreal.
Truly, I can say I’m living the dream and it is all I could ever ask for. So, school has been pretty good, lessons fine and lunch break’s ok with many places to eat. The only thing would be that school hours are kind of long for me with two days of 9am-5pm school days and two days where I end at 4pm. But, I can deal with it especially when I get my new wheelchair soon. I always have been complaining that my life’s been so boring and not as busy as I like, in trying to live life to the fullest, but now I’ve truly got what I want and I’m so close to my goal of living life to the fullest.
I mean, now I’m so busy, I had to fit in my chess lessons on Thursday afternoon where I end school early only on that day and after a 9-5 day at school on Friday, I had singing lessons at night. While on Saturday’s I have chess training and Sunday it’s Church. Really in terms of activities I think I’m about there in terms of living life to the fullest although I still will continue to improve especially in terms of Church. The only thing left would be to reach where I need to be socially and to be fully content with all my circumstances.
Well, I have had to make some adjustments to cater to this new lifestyle now, like to find time to still be able to slow down, relax, read my Bible, spend time with God and reflect. Also, I need to find time to do my chess and practise my singing. So yea, this week was also sort of like getting accustomed to a new way of life, like to figure out my life. I did feel at some parts of this week I wasn’t really myself, coz I was so busy I couldn’t stop to keep my mind on the focus of all I am doing and that is to remember that what I’m doing is all for the glory of God. So, I’m really going to make sure that I find the balance in my life now and remind myself always what I’m truly living for. So I just pray that I will be able to truly live my life to the fullest and continue to build up myself spiritually and strengthen my faith and my relationship with Christ even as I get much busier from now on...
To end, I guess I’m really happy about this new experience and in a way a new lifestyle in that I’m doing what I’m passionate about every day. But, with these new circumstances that have been so exciting and amazing, I have had to make a lot of adjustments. I put it as figuring out this life coz now that I’ve many of the things I want in my life, I have to make sense of all this in terms of living my life for God’s glory. Yet, I must say this is a good problem to have, coz now I have been presented with all these new opportunities, it’s just a matter of taking them and focussing them into my ultimate goal to bring glory to God. So yea, I just feel so blessed in my life now and it’s been amazing so far in my poly journey, I just look forward to enjoying my life even more and continue to make progress socially even as I’m glad that others have made an effort to reach out to me and with my personal effort to improve, I’m sure I would miss out on it this time. And, as for my course, it’s my passion and I pray that God will give me the strength to excel in it and bring glory to His Name...and finally I see what life is really about...
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