God is in control...

Well, this week i've experienced so much, and had so many things i wanted to say, but i just haven't had the luxury of time due to the ever busier schedule of school. The whole week, i was so busy doing homework after homework, and some of my work i did was not satisfactory for me but overall, i'm quite pleased with how tenacious i've been in persevering to finish all my home way in advanced and i really feel like my work is improving. I really believe that the only reason i could have finished my homework and get through it unscathed, is that God was in control all this while, spuring me on to work hard and God was the one who gave me the strength.

Even as its been so great that i've completed my work, and i'm filled with satisfaction, i must say the greatest satisfaction comes from knowing that i've gone through the whole week with the Lord by my side and to know that i'm living my life for God, which therefore gives meaning to everything i do, which is truly joy in its purest sense, even more than happiness as the world deems it. U know reading the article today on the newspaper about positive psychology, true happiness comes from having meaning in life, which actually i would say is having a relationship with God.

And, i really feel like as i begin the week after this morning's worship in church, i'm really feeling this joy and fulifillment in the pursuit of the truth which is God's will for my life, and i know no matter what circumstances i face, good or bad, i can rejoice in that the Lord is with me always, forever...And, i got to be really honest, last week the only thing that really sustained me was God's grace, and i face the ever worsening situation of really being by myself all the time, and really feeling so left out in school, coz of the fact that i don't have friends, i.e. the ones who know MORE THAN JUST your name, and MORE THAN JUST occassionally say hi when they are in a friendly mood. I'm still kinda, wishing somehow for like people i can be with and i know that of course, sometimes i know i can be quite selfish in really wanting this and yet i don't go out trying to make friends and try getting more involved, but i'm really trying, just isn't my style. So, in a way one may say how can i expect to have friends, but really, i'm just wanting to be a friend and how can i be expected to give and never take? Anw, i'm constantly not letting this trouble me, for i know God has a plan for me much greater than what i imagine for myself, as in friends and stuff, and anw God is the greatest friend. so yea, that was the same old issue again and again. Through all of this, discomforting, unhappy and sad things going on, God was with always there for me and sad though i felt, God pulled me through, comforted me, spoke to me and just really was in control of everything. The love of God, i could still feel even in dark moments, and i just guided me through all these things. In the end, there was still, joy in my heart and tts all that mattered.

One other thing i realised through failures and troubles, just also thinking about the message again and again about God's plan and will for everyones lives, is that we don't have to live up to any expectations, something which was mentioned in the chapel of the week just gone past. But, the thing is that, i've really experienced that, and although i've already talked about that in my last post, personally it meant something to me and thats what i want to share in this. I've realised that, to God we are all special and God loves everyone regardless of who we are and what we've done. And, we don't have to live up to any expectations, all we need to do really is to give ourselves to God and do everything for God. God's plan for our lives is better than whatever expectations anyone has. We are not bound by what people expect of us, as long as we do what is right in the eyes of the Lord and follow in God's plan for our lives, we don't need to worry about what other people think. And, when we fail, face disappointments or end up on the losing end, we shouldn't let that put us down coz God measures us not by what we achieve or how successful we are in the eyes of the world. God just wants us to live for Him and to glorify His name. We are freed from things that pull us down when we trust in the Lord, and God wants our hearts and we are worth so much that God sent His son to die for us.

So finally, through the storm, of problems and struggles of daily life, sucj as school and family, Gof was in control, and there was never a moment that i had to worry for God leads me each day to live according to His will for my life and God is always there to help me, and His plans for my life are only for my good, to prosper me and not to fail me. So anw, i'm just really feeling really good right now. I just hope that this coming week will be good and i'm just not worrying about anything at all coz i know God will be with me all the way. Thus, i'd like to end with this...that, THOUGH MY WORLD MAY FALL, GOD IS IN CONTROL...so, i'm just gonna place my trust in God.

My blog posts are always about the same thing everytime but really, what greater thing is there to talk about than the amazing God that we live for, it is almost endless...and i'm not going to post bcos of any expectations of my blog, but i guess, i'll try to freshen up my blog...so many more things to say...ok, anw so tts the end of my post...

Comments

Unknown said…
Wow Timmy. Its really encouraging reading your blog. Don't worry, you are not the only one feeling this way - the need for true and deep friendships. It is seldom found in today's world, and many people struggle just like you.

You should keep writing man. You have a talent in it!

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