I Don't Regret...this life

Looking back on my life so far, there are both good and bad memories. However, there's no reason to think that i'm complaining or resent any of the bad things in my life. Many actually would say that the bad things were on the contrary part of the process of becoming who they are today...a positive thing. I guess i'm one of them, because truly i don't regret anything that's happened in my life, in fact i'm grateful. That's all because i know that in whatever events that happened in my life, it was no accident, it was to shape me and i believe that God made my life for a purpose and all things have been transforming me into the person God wants me to become. I'm happy with my life past and present, even the future. Of course, there were things that happened that were not pleasant, but its part of the learning process and sometimes maybe somethings can be done to stop it from happening again. Most often though, i find that the problems seem so bad and the world just seems so cold, even people who you care for the most may treat one harshly but sometimes there's still some good, and sometimes maybe it's just because no ones perfect; and its just a moment of anger or something like that. In fact, the thing i feel is the single cause of most problems, is the relationships of people, because i think that if there was genuine love and concern for each other the world would be almost perfect...Most importantly if really loved God, the world would be perfect . And, i mean it was man's sin that spoiled this perfect world that God created. So i guess, there will always be good and bad things, but its how one looks at it that can maybe turn bad things into something which will help improve oneself.
Most of the time it seems like i'm so negative but then i think it must be amazing for me to have so much determination despite being so pessimistic, well i do focus alot on the negatives things but i'm not mindlessly moaning over the bad things...i'm trying to think of the way round this bad things and eliminate it. Maybe, one might think that, i shouldn't try to change the situation but to be positive despite the problems...i guess its right. Just that sometimes, i think its hard and i don't know how to be happy went nothing seems to go right. Furthermore, i'm not dwelling on the past, i just want to move on with a knowledge of the past so i don't make the same mistakes and to live life more meaningfully and have more friends too.
The reason i'm so obessesed with meaning and life and all these friends thing, is because i feel i've missed out on alot, i just want to really enjoy and make full use of the gift of life that God has given everyone of us. I've read lots of stuff that give the answers to many of the question marks in life and of course the Bible but the problem is that i don't know how to apply it.
Really, there's only one thing that i really want to live life the way God wants me to...which is ultimately the only really meaningful thing. That's why i'm always broading over this issue, because it is still something i've yet to fully comprehend.
Honestly, i think i'm quite happy.